Tag Archives: sobriety

4 Years of Continued Sobriety

I have always loved the above track, by B.o.B, featuring Taylor Swift.  I can identify with these lyrics in a way.  The idea of being strong enough to help another person, I think, is a shared human desire.  In helping someone else, I help myself.  Having mentioned that, I can not be co-dependent on another […]

December Depression

Have you ever taken a shower and felt the water did nothing more than soak in the dirt?  I have done everything, from staying in longer, to taking showers on the repeat.  I can barely hold my head up, to this depression, I concede.  May the water melt me down, let that drain, take me […]

3 Years of Continued Sobriety

Last week Friday, like the majority of Fridays, began the same. I woke up, washed, drank my juice and headed out, to chair a support group meeting.  I was afforded the opportunity from my sober coach to service people that are recovering from addiction, just as I am. I have to express, we are very […]

Circles of Blame

  My mind is slowly improving after years of heavy substance abuse.  I have been told it could take 5 years for my mind to fully heal.  I have jokingly heard from some, that it will take another 5 years to figure out how to use it.  Well, I’m not big into numbers and statistics, […]

2 Years of Continued Sobriety

I can’t believe I hold you in my hand. It took me five years of going back and forth with accepting that I had a problem.  It took five years of facing the fear of the stigma they all built to shame me with.  I did not understand then what was wrong with me.  Why […]

1 Year of Continued Sobriety

  It is estimated that my last drug was near February 4th of 2013, at least that was when I was admitted to a hospital having attempted to cancel my life twice in the same day.  Looking back at that brief time before my long hospital stay I did not know what was real and […]

November 5th

As of November 4th I celebrated 9 months of sobriety www.facebook.com/mdadourian and I am happy.  For an addict/alcoholic such as myself, everyday I remain sober is a miracle and gift.  I never thought I could stay sober for one hour let alone an entire day. Having mentioned that, I am 9 months clean and couldn’t have […]

8 Months Old

October 4th, 2013 I earned my 8th month of continued sobriety.  What a feeling to celebrate that day with close family (blood in, blood out).  Since my first experience being drunk and high I have never gone over 5 months sober.  I would call everything previous to now as periods of being a dry drunk […]